Its the first day of 2019 and i having a breakdown. A minute after the clock hits 12 am, i made my new year resolution. One of them was to be more positive but i failed. I cant be happy. I cant be fine. Even not an ‘ok’. Why? I crumble each and every sec of my life. There was a saying that life have its ups and downs but why is my life is only downs? I fall deeper them ever. I haven’t a rough start but i hope it is will work out soon. I really need it. Life and death now. And i wasnt planning to live longer.