Recently, I have been so confused; about my outlook on life, my principles, the truths/lies I have been conditioned to believe in, how am I supposed to act/feel. There are just so many things running through my mind – from questioning my place in the community around me to desiring emotional companionship and intimacy and then to feeling bad about myself for having those thoughts.
Wow, its a whirlwind I know.
Have been trying to come to terms with my emotions and reminding myself that its OK to feel these things – we are all human and its normal to feel deeply. While its not always as organised as we wish it to be, these life-questioning moments are what makes me truly human and I want to be with someone who is open and willing to talk about them when others shy away.
Its remarkable how well the human body can play camouflage and hide our true emotions from the outside world. People probably think I have my shit together and should be grateful for all the opportunities I have, of course I am but there will be those nights where your mind wanders off and its important to recognize when you need to be truly honest and vulnerable with yourself.
Even now as I’m typing my thoughts are still everywhere but I know I will get through this, one day at a time. You truly never know what the person next to you is going through, so please, don’t judge anyone before you hear their story.