I’ve 2 episodes of self harm last month and just recently discharged from ward. My condition was improving when the doctor change the medication. But the past few days, I started having the same self harm thought again. And I don’t know why. When thought came, it was always associated with burning sensation in the chest. This time I don’t want to tell anyone anymore. I think I start losing the trust again. Plus I don’t want to be a burden and a nuisance to anyone. To certain people, it seem as if I don’t want to get better. Funny once I think about it. Bcz if it is so, I won’t even bother seeing the psychiatrist. I guess I’ve just lost the will to fight and live anymore and just go with the flow… I’m so damn tired and exhausted!!!